This morning I heard the Lord whisper something that resulted in a stream of tears running down my face while sitting in a communications class. (Random place, but that’s just life.)
I heard Him say, “Maggie, breathe. It’s okay to get your hopes up.”
I hadn’t realized until that very moment that the root of the discontentment & stress I’d been feeling lately hasn’t been in where I am or who I’m with, but in the fact that I’ve been walking through life holding my breath. I don’t know if that makes sense to you guys, but basically I’ve just been so afraid to fully trust him that it’s like I’ve been holding onto my hopes and dreams with clenched fists, unable to let go & surrender them.
And lemme just tell ya, walking through life with your breath held & your hands in fists is tough– it creates a lot of unnecessary tension.
I’ve always been taught that getting your hopes up is a bad thing, because in many cases, it just seems to lead to unmet expectations and heart-wrenching disappointment. So after a while, I think my heart just stopped hoping. I forgot how to hope.
So, this morning, when met with the words “it’s okay to get your hopes up,” I felt like something shifted inside of me; it felt like I could breathe again.
I was reminded that in living life with Jesus, IT’S OKAY TO GET YOUR HOPES UP. We serve a God who’s never going to let us down !!! It’s okay to dream. It’s okay to be excited about life. It’s BEAUTIFUL to surrender and to relentlessly HOPE.
Lately without even meaning to, I’ve been using the phrase “here’s to hoping” quite a lot, and now I’m realizing that maybe that’s not such a coincidence. (Especially because the actual phrase is “here’s hoping” and I’ve been saying it wrong this whole time. Haha. But I think I like it better this way–)
So here’s to hoping, and to a season of my heart learning to hope again.
And just for the heck of it, here are a few songs on my mind that you should check out if you have the time or find yourself feeling the same way:
Beautiful Surrender — Jonathan & Melissa Helser,
King Of My Heart — John Mark & Sarah McMillan
(two oldies but goodies). You are loved,